The biggest lesson i’ve been learning over the past few weeks is one of patience.
It’s funny, because I had never considered myself as a particularly impatient person. I’ve never struggled to wait in line for something, never been bothered about standing in long queues, or annoyed when waiting to get off a plane when it lands. But i’ve become aware, that when it comes to myself and wanting to better or improve my own life or change in any way, I am strangely incredibly impatient.
It’s really difficult at times, being in the position where you can finally see a glimmer of the light at the end of the tunnel and knowing inside what you need to do to get there, yet not being able to do so; not being able to click your fingers and make the change, and get there straight away. It can be hard too, to put your own desires and wishes aside, when you know that they aren’t serving the present you, and that they can only really be feasible when you reach that place you have in mind.
Just like an athlete recovering from an injury might not want anything more in the world than to go on a run, they know deep down that doing so won’t benefit them and their healing process, and if they’re honest with themselves it’s something that they know they need to put aside.
Patience is about appreciating that where you are, right now in this moment is okay, and to not beat yourself up for not quite being where you want to be yet. It’s about appreciating the journey, and knowing that success in any area of life takes a lot of hard work and dedication, and that there will be many times that you feel discouraged or like you could be doing better or when you feel like you can’t see an end point.
That’s the thing - life isn’t a straight A to B line. There are going to be so many ups and downs, and most of the time you won’t see a clear picture of where you’re heading. But that’s what makes the journey interesting and fun, and by opening your mind and not being so focused on an end goal all of the time you allow room for opportunity.
Changing your life takes lots of baby steps, day by day. Some days you’ll take leaps, and some days you won’t move at all. And even if one day you do even take a step back, it’s okay. It’s normal. The important thing is that you keep going, keep motivated, and the trend, overall, stays upwards.
It won’t be long before you can look back and notice that all of these small, sometimes seemingly insignificant steps ARE slowly adding up, ARE slowly making a difference. It can be hard to keep perspective, to remind yourself of how far you’ve come. Just know that where you are right now is exactly where you’re meant to be in this moment. That is not to say that things aren’t changing or that they shouldn’t - just stop being so hard on yourself for not being there yet, what you’re doing isn’t easy.
Learning how to be patient with yourself is not only one of the most important, but most difficult lessons of all.